5 September 1998

See related on "Toto": http://jya.com/cej-bust.htm

    Date: Thu, 09 Apr 1998 10:30:59 -0600
    From: TruthMonger <tm@dev.null>

    For the record:

    If a CypherPunk falls in the forest and there is nobody
    there to see or hear...

    In the (hopefully) remote case that the world wakes
    tommorrow to read the headline, "Third Murderer Arrested
    In Jonesboro Massacre--Suspect Also Linked To OKC Bombing
    J.F.K assassination, and eating of apple from the Tree
    Of Life."

    It is not important for the world to know the details
    behind the FUD disseminated in events/affairs such as
    those surrounding JFK, Jim Bell, ad infinitum.
    But it *is* important for *someone* to know.

    The Truth (TM) about what will transpire in the current
    persecrotchsin against my angelic being will be what the
    Truth (TM) always is...a fucking mystery.

    What is important is that an accurate knowledge of the
    details be known, as much as possible, so that there is
    an opportunity for those who wish to do so to elicit and
    face the Truth (TM) to the best of their ability, or
    according to their own personal prediliction, if mental
    comfort is more important to them than truth.

    Details--I drove 2,000 miles to arrive at the doorstep
    of my dear friend Gomez the day before he, himself,
    found out that he was being cut loose from a company
    he had co-founded 17 years earlier.
      I had been informed as to what was about to go down.

    Details--I surfaced on the CypherPunks list as Toto,
    shortly before Tim May was driven/alienated from the
    list which he had co-founded and did my best to
    provide a  bizarre and inane surrogacy in his absence.
      I had been informed as to what was about to go down.

    Details--I secured the essential files on my hard drive
    and headed for the US to put them out of the reach of
    the Oppressors shortly before they arrived on my doorstep
    to seize my computers.
      I had been informed as to what was about to go down.

      Feel free to categorize the above as Truth, Delusion,
    Synchronicity, etc, but the details are accurate.

      A goodly portion of my posts, etc., which seem to be
    either pointless or foolish have been quite simply an
    action designated to provide a fulcrum point for my
    associates to monitor and analyze responses and traffic
    patterns that result.
     (Chief among these aims is sifting those responding
      from personal beliefs and values from those who are
      responding according to an 'agenda', whether their
      own, or that of others.)

    For the better part of a decade, I have been free to
    do whatever the fuck it is that I do (???), with little
    interference, basically as a result of the fact that
    much of the 'game' going on between my associates and
    their 'opponenets' has been a semi-civilized process of
    warring to accumulate better tools and information than
    the 'other side.'

      I have basically served as a willing schill whose role
    was to implement needed processes of information
    dissemination in a 'fictional parable' style that the
    'players' understood, and that the 'seekers' had a hope
    of deciphering (and becoming 'players') without telling
    the Truth (TM) in such a blatant way as to endanger the
    'game' and force everyone's hand.

      A few months ago, I was informed that the stakes had
    been raised, the rules had changed, and that my options
    were to withdraw, or to recognize that 'in for a penny,
    in for a pound' was the new order of the day.

      At the time that many of my c/overt associates began
    going underground, I was able to begin acting wholly of
    my own accord. Without providing details, let me say
    that the 'Official RCMP Hate Page' which is the overt
    cause of my current 'troubles' was designed to provide
    exactly the type of envelope pushing which was suggested
    on the list (re: challenging the 3-line Perl criminality).
    However, the act which caused the hammer to fall was
    merely a 'final straw' which was not recognized by the
    Oppressors as a *continuation* of a process in which
    defensive measures where heaped upon the camel, to
    provide the main load.
      (Sorry to be cryptic about this, but the details of
       the 'other' part of this process need to remain
       as a gun hidden in the boot, for now.)

      My point is, the point that has been reached wherein
    the Oppressors are springing to the attack is not the
    result of a random, impulsive act. Neither are their
    actions unanticipated, nor have their actions and plans
    gone *unmonitored*?

      I have been provided with information that indicates
    that some of the factors and issues being considered in
    handling the 'problem' I allegedly represent revolve
    around:

    1. Violence.
    I have a 'history' of assaulting law enforcement officials
    which is in no way diminished in value by the fact that
    it is bogus.

    2. Insanity.
    I have a 'history' of insanity which is a spin-doctor's
    dream in regard to having me dismissed as a 'lunatic',
    regardless of the fact that I was subjected to
    electroshock treatments as a result of misdiagnosis
    of Tourette Syndrome.

    3. Criminality.
    I have a 'history' of deep involvement in the drug
    trade (busted for 1/2 joint in 1969, and 'suspected'
    of more drug crimes than Noriega, since then).
    I have a 'history' of involvement with organized crime.
    (running legal nude dance parlors for shady characters
     who dine with judges, prosecutors, police chiefs and
     major politicians).

    The Good News (TM) is that the preferred manner of
    pounding me back into alignment with the rest of the
    Nailizens (TM) is to do a Ted Kaczynski on me and
    pleading me out for 'jaywalking' once everyone agrees
    that I am a pitiful, mentally debilitated misfit.
    The Bad News (TM)...

    Well, the Bad News (TM) is that I, like other list
    members, have been, since birth, a CypherPunk waiting
    for someone to start a CypherPunks mailing list...

    I was wrongfully convicted of possession of marijuana
    as a youth, as the result of the criminal malefeasance
    of the RCMP.

    The first joint I smoked was on the courhouse steps,
    after being 'convicted' of The Crime. Although I had a
    well-paying, regular job, I paid the 'fine' by buying
    and selling a pound of pot.

    Essentially, I was undeniably establishing the fact that
    I am a FuckYou kind of guy.

    Being young, I managed to accomplish this amazing feat
    of FuckYouNess while still maintaining my belief in
    Mom/Flag/ApplePie/DudlyDoRight.

    This was, in retrospect, a Good Thing (TM), since it
    kept me from impulsively slaughtering those involved in
    my wrongful persecution, at an age when I did not have
    the experience/wisdom to do so effectively and cover my
    ass as much as possible in the process.

    Although the Kaczynski/Jaywalking route is by far the
    most sensible and the safest route, I am afraid that
    I have grown to love and appreciate, over the years, the
    FuckYou HighWay To Hell.
    "In for a fucking penny, in for a cocksucking pound..."

    The foregoing information/details/background in regard
    to my life, beliefs and attitudes is solely for the
    purpose of making it plain that:

    1. I not only knew/know they were/are coming...I sent
    for them. If the Official Version Of Events (TM)
    indicates that I resisted/ran, had to be violently
    subdued/shot, etc., then those buying the OVOE (TM)
    will get a coupon good for a discount on the Brooklyn
    Bridge.

    2. If the OVOE (TM) indicates that I am a drooling
    mongoloid idiot who needed to be locked away in the
    Happy Place (TM), then it would be a good bet to assume
    that Jim Bell's LeftOver Medications (MT) were shipped
    air-express to Canada for my 'benefit'.

    3. If the Official Version Of Events (TM) is that I
    am a low-life criminal with a checkered past and a long
    list of crimes under my belt, then 'the Beaver' must
    have been Noriega's superior, because me and 'the Beav'
    are such genius, criminal masterminds that John Law
    was powerless to apprehend us in the commission of our
    mountain of crimes, and successfully convict us.

      Hopefully, I am being melodramatic, because I may
    well have my ass covered well enough that the Oppressors
    will be hard-put to carry-through on (or escalate) their
    current actions without incurring more grief than they
    are willing to bear.

      If such is the case, then I will retire from shit-
    disturbing, take up knitting, and invite you over
    for tea in the afternoons. (And in the mornings, I will
    just lay around and play with my 32' dick.)

      There is a distinct possibility, however, that the
    Oppressors might quite simply drop any charges which
    would come back on them and make them look like Nazi
    Fucks (TM), and simply charge me with a wide variety
    of 'crimes' that are known to be the sign of low-life,
    scum-sucking, drug-dealing, communist, child-molesting
    terroists who don't floss after meals.
      (You know the routine...)

      The Good News (TM) is that I am fully capable, if
    'depicted' as a violent, insane criminal, of living up
    to whatever label is chosen for me in the Official
    Perversion Of Events (TM).

      "We make our Gods, and do battle with them...and they
    bless us."
    ~Herman Hesse

      "We make our Demons, and fuck with them...and they
    rip us a new asshole."
    ~TruthMongrel

    The Bottom Line:

      When convicted/labeled as a drug user/abuser/addict,
    I rose to the occassion by actively taking on that role,
    by choice, as a humanitarian gesture designed to redeem
    my persecutors by fulfilling the role which would
    justify their actions, in the long run.

      Likewise, if I am depicted/convicted as a Monster (TM)
    who unconsiounsibly rips babies apart with a chainsaw...
    Well, I've always kind of wondered what babys look like
    inside...

    The sole reason for relating the above to you is simply
    because I have enjoyed and appreciated the contributions
    you have made to the CypherPukes Disturbed Male List,
    the IntegerNet, and the UniFarce which we all Cher with
    Sonny Bono.

    Thus, on the off-chance that the Oppressors discover the
    Nuclear SampsonIte SuitCase that I have hidden in my
    basement, thus propelling me into the limelight with
    Timothy McVeigh, Pete Rose and Adolf Hitler, you will be
    able to brag to your friends,

      "I don't know if Oswald acted alone, but TruthMonger
    sure as hell didn't.

    TruthMonger#1
    p.s. - Don't tell my mom...OK?

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    Date: Thu, 09 Apr 1998 22:11:42 -0600
    From: TruthMonger <tm@dev.null>

    I just received a rather disturbing piece of information from a source
    who has, over the years, provided me with a variety of purloined
    information which has helped me to keep my ass out of the fire.

    While I was absolutely *stunned* when I read the information sent to
    me, despite being a cynical asshole by nature, the references in the
    material to events spanning decades of my life contained details which
    are consistent only with what would be known by those who have deemed
    it necessary to monitor my activities for various reasons over that
    period of time.

    Although the information I received is apparently (I hope) of a
    'Plans For Invasion Of Canada' nature (i.e. - theoretical?), it
    seems that at least some of those who are sworn to "Protect and Serve"
    are of the opinion that the best way to handle the 'problem' I present
    is to actively seek to push my buttons, in an effort to get me to
    'snap' at a time when I am being actively watched and investigated.

    Apparently, my long history of biding my time until I choose to act
    on my predilictions according to my own schedule is an 'serious
    inconvenience' to those sworn to 'serve' the citizens up to the
    Power&MoneyMongers, whom they are paid to 'protect.'

    I was dumbfounded to read of the 'disappointment' of someone who seems
    to be particularly enamoured with the idea of trying to steer me toward
    the Murrah Federal Building (and hope I don't arrive there during their
    coffee-break), when the opportune time to institute 'the plan' was
    missed as a result of them procrastinating until I had the opportunity
    to renew my medication prescriptions.

    What I find particularly disturbing, in retrospect, is that, had I
    not been forewarned of the plans of the Dangerous Armed Thugs to
    steal my personal possessions and violate my Charter Rights, I may
    have well instinctively reacted in a manner that would have left
    me vulnerable to being enjoined in physical violence as a 'potential
    threat' to the 'safety of law enforcement officials.'
    It seems that, given local law enforcement officials' hard-to-deny
    knowledge of my 'affliction' (I think of it as a blessing...) with
    Tourette Syndrome, it is 'inadviseable' for the Armed Thugs to
    attack me merely for swearing and shouting. However, if I should
    happen to 'wave' my arms around, then I am apparently free game
    for any officers who desire to interpret this as indicating that
    their personal safety can only be assured by actively assaulting
    me. (You know the routine: "Sir, failure to stop sneezing will be
    taken as an act of Passive Aggression (TM-Orwell) and I will be
    forced to kill your whole family.")

    Over the years, I have become somewhat desensitized to the gross
    violations of law, ethics and common decency, while poring over
    the files of various agencies, in regard to myself and to others.
    However, I find it extremely troubling that the type of mentality
    which is evident in the files I have just read a dozen times, to
    convince myself I am not imagining it all, not only exists within
    the confines of secret government files, but seems to be addressed
    to law enforcement personnel in general, rather than being viewed
    as information that should be kept away from they eyes of officials
    who might still have a sense of legality and ethics.

    On the other hand, the decline in the murderous rampages of
    Disgruntled Postal Workers may indicate that the law enforcement
    technique being described above has been pretty much perfected,
    with Waco and OKC being the exceptions.

    I sincerely hope that you find the above a bit hard to believe,
    because the minute I send this email, I am going to go dig the
    information out of it's triple-secret hiding place and read it
    again, just to make sure I'm not going crazy...

    Toto
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